Atm im outside my local post office in the rain because its rather poky and cant fit everybody. Its bn 3 months since andy left and im about 3 pounds heavier. Not great since that makes nearly 17st. Youre supposed to lose weight before your wedding day not gain it. Im not lazy i dont feast on junk food i go gym and limit my calorie intake and yet here i am. In fact im intending to go gym after the fun in the rain. I think my head is just firmly fixed up my ass thinkn bout him & getting married. Life as a sailors gf/ wife sucks!